Monday, June 30, 2008

A Not So Curious Incident Of An Underdog In Lifetime

If someone asks me who are two of my favorite characters and it wouldn’t take me much time to come up with the names of Marvin from “Hitchhikers Guide to Galaxy”, the guy who parked cars for 10 million years though having a brain of the size of a planet and George Costanza from the TV series “Seinfeld”, who was never expected and never did anything great in life. I myself have wondered many times why I like these two characters that much and finally concluded that it has to be some sort of empathy I have for these characters. I think if there is someone who can compete with me in being an underdog with so much consistency, these are the only two characters that come close. I also had the same empathy for Rajasthan Royals team in IPL league at one point of time but they betrayed me and ended up winning the trophy, which I feel is not what real underdogs do in real life. According to me, if in real life some underdog achieves something real, he is not a real underdog.

I know I may sound a bit too pessimistic but let me quote one of the incidents from my life, hence the title of this blog. Sometime back at some place, well time and space doesn’t matter in this incident because they are entangled in such a way that no one can comprehend. It was morning 6:00 am and my alarm clock started ringing loud and clear. I knew I had to rush but I still snoozed to grab few extra minutes of sleep. Finally after snoozing two or three times, I got up and did all daily routine activities in a hurry and reached at the bus stop. This bus was supposed to take me there and I wasn’t very sure why I was going there but knew that I had to be there. Finally I reached at my destination and as usual I took out my keys, took out my laptop from the drawers and allowed it to start and in the meantime went to the coffee room to grab a cup of coffee. Yes, you guessed it right I reached to my office and it was morning 7:50 am. After having the coffee, continued to work till evening 4:30 with a small lunch break in between. Evening 4:30 left back for the place, from where I came in the morning (please do notice that I haven’t used the word home here because it seems some that a home has some very essential components). After reaching there twitched a bit with my six strings and left for my club to play tennis for an hour or so, came back in the night, had dinner and finally retired to my bed waiting for the alarm bell to ring again next day.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

An Aimless Wanderer

I have a feeling I have to go
To where I don't even know
Though I can still see some light
I have to be there before its dark night

It's weird you may say
But I don't have any reason to stay
Something inside makes me wanna run
And soak up this shining sun

I can feel the feelings withering
And the emotions tittering
But can't help but to keep going
To a destination without even knowing.

( My own (mis)creation )
- गजेंद्र "स्थिरप्रग्य" सिडाना

Monday, May 05, 2008

Bill Watterson's quotes

Below are some of the legendary quotes of Bill Watterson, the man who created all time great comic strip "Calvin and Hobbes". Bill watterson like Douglas Adams is one of the few writers whose quotes are full of wit and humour and yet so close to reality that they have something for everyone. They are the quotes which will resonate in everyone's heart. I am putting some of the quotes of Bill here. In the next blog, I am going to put Douglas Adams' quotes.


A real job is a job you hate.

Reality continues to ruin my life.

From now on, I'll connect the dots my own way.

Genius is never understood in its own time.

God put me on this earth to accomplish a certain number of things. Right now I am so far behind that I will never die.

Heck, what's a little extortion among friends?

I find my life is a lot easier the lower I keep everyone's expectations.

I know the world isn't fair, but why isn't it ever unfair in my favor?

I liked things better when I didn't understand them.

I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.

I thought my life would seem more interesting with a musical score and a laugh track.

I'm not dumb. I just have a command of thoroughly useless information.

If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I'll bet they'd live a lot differently.

It's not denial. I'm just selective about the reality I accept.

It's surprising how hard we'll work when the work is done just for ourselves.

Know what's weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change. But pretty soon, everything's different.

Mothers are the necessity of invention.

Nothing helps a bad mood like spreading it around.

Often it takes some calamity to make us live in the present. Then suddenly we wake up and see all the mistakes we have made.

Shutting off the thought process is not rejuvenating; the mind is like a car battery - it recharges by running.

So, what's it like in the real world? Well, the food is better, but beyond that, I don't recommend it.

Sometimes I think the surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that none of it has tried to contact us.

Sometimes when I'm talking, my words can't keep up with my thoughts. I wonder why we think faster than we speak. Probably so we can think twice.

Talking with you is sort of the conversational equivalent of an out of body experience.

That's the whole problem with science. You've got a bunch of empiricists trying to describe things of unimaginable wonder.

The problem with the future is that it keeps running into the present.

The surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that it has never tried to contact us.

The world of a comic strip ought to be a special place with its own logic and life... I don't want the issue of Hobbes's reality settled by a doll manufacturer.

There is not enough time to do all the nothing we want to do.

Things are never quite as scary when you've got a best friend.

We all have different desires and needs, but if we don't discover what we want from ourselves and what we stand for, we will live passively and unfulfilled.

We don't devote enough scientific research to finding a cure for jerks.

Weekends don't count unless you spend them doing something completely pointless.

Why waste time learning, when ignorance is instantaneous?

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Just an inane thought

Today while I was talking to my colleague Arjun, I stumbled upon this interesting idea which I am sure not many feminists might have thought so far. So as usual being a great liker of women fraternity (though to my bad luck somehow they don't like me), I thought of putting it here. The idea I am talking about is related to the cyclones and hurricanes. Now let me ask you this, what is common between women and the hurricanes and cyclones, which have hit our planet recent times apart from the fact that both can be devastating at times. The answer is not very simple, so I will tell you the answer straight away. The commonality is that all these cyclones/hurricanes were named after women, be it Katrina, Rita or Nargis (which struck Bangalore yesterday) and Tsunami (though not sure what it means but definitely this word have feminine feel :D). So is it just pure coincidence that time and again all the devastating hurricanes were named after women, or its a sort of conspiracy by men dominated world or it is a fact the women are indeed dangerous and hence nothing unusual in this kind of nomenclature, only a feminist can answer. Any feminist reading this?

Thursday, April 24, 2008

An ode to 1800 km

Today while looking at my bike's techometer, I realized that I have covered 1800 kms on my newly bought Pulsar 200 bike that too on the notriously famous Bangalore roads. These 1800 kms were not only wasted somewhere in the hurry to reach my destination rather these 1800 kms helped me understand the dynamics of Bangalore traffic system. Not to anyone's surprise, I realized that Bangalore traffic is a big hazard for the daily commuters but more than that it prepares you for the big battles in life. Another reason for writing this blog is the Unlock Bangalore campaign started by TOI. In this campaign bikers were villified to such an extent that one would think only bikers are responsible for the chaos on the roads. Hence I decided to list down the categories of vehicles which I feel are more responsible for the chaos when compared with Bikers. So here goes my list:
1) The proud winner in my list are the lady driver driving a pink scooty. Never ever try to compete with them, whether you have a pulsar 200 or a hayabhusha, it doesn't make any difference. You can never win.
2) Beware of the kids who drive bicycles and mopeds because these kids are really stupid. Don't think that I dont like kids, its just even elder people dont follow traffic rules, forget about these innocent kids to do so. After all they will learn from their elders.
3) Take extra care from the BMTC buses. Drivers of these buses are the same small kids who drove their mopeds/bicycles rashly in their childhood and then decided not to change. In case if it is a volvo it could be even worse.
4) If you see a car with yellow number plate, take extra precaution. Also the auto rikshaws, they drive as if the sole purpose of the road is to enable their movement and restrict others.
Another thought which has hovered in brain for so long is that, somewhere while complaining about the congested traffic system of Bangalore, I feel we forget to see the good work done by the traffic police people. I know I would be the only one to think this way but considering the resources they have at their disposal and the conditions in which they have to work, I feel they are doing a commendable job. Let us not forget that, when human rights people are busy shouting slogans to save people like Afzal guru, nobody gives a shit about these traffic police people, who have to inhale litres of hazardous gases everyday just to make this traffic run that too for a paltry amount of money they get at the end of the month.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

An Innocent Death

After a long hiatus today I thought of writing. It has been months since I updated my blog but best part is that it doesn't make any difference, as no one would have noticed it since I am sure, not many people would be dropping on this blog anyways. Its not that lack of readers is always a bad rather sometimes it is good for a person like me. It gives me ample opportunity to discard all the garbage off my head but still not to bother anyone with it. So if anyone is reading this blog so far, it becomes my moral responsibility to make him aware about the possible danger he is stepping on.


I am back here because I needed to vent out the weird feeling I am having today. The sole reason for this is the movie "Into the wild". I watched this movie yesterday night and it shook me in a way, which no movie has done in past few years. The movie based on the true story of a 23 year old boy named Christopher Mccandless, who went into the wild in Alaska to live on his own. He donated his life time savings of USD 24,000 to OXFAM. He abandoned his car and burnt all the money he had.He survives in Alaska for 112 days before dying because of poisoning caused by a poisonous plant he ate.


This movie touches lot of aspects of human feeling. This movie makes you feel what is really important in your life. The main character makes you realize how a person can be happy without any bondage like money, power and relations. This movie also makes you ponder over your plight for missing so much of what nature has to offer. In the last part Christopher realized that a person enjoys happiness when its shared but it was too late for him to leave Alaska and ultimately he was forced to spend his last few days there itself.


The last part is a very tragic portrayal of an innocent death and by the time it happens viewer is bound to be so attached with the character that he will feel the pain of his death. I don't know which string this movie touched in my heart but I know one thing, it has change my perspective of life.


I must give full credit to director Sean Penn for directing a masterpiece, where I will give hundred percent marks to Emile Hirsch for acting and Eddie Vedder for wonderful sound track for this movie. The sound track is so great that I am listening to it continuously from past two days. After watching the movie, this sound track touches the heart even more.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Eurotrip 1

I started my journey on March 03, 2007 for Paris, my intermediate stoppage before my final destination, Amsterdam. After 10 hrs of pleasant flight in AF Business class, I reached in Paris sharp on time. The Paris airport is really big and I must say just by comparing the airports of Bangalore and Paris, you can easily contemplate the difference in life standard of people in these cities. Paris airport is really big and yet so organized. After spending three hrs on Paris airport, I started my voyage for Amsterdam. To my surprise, I found Schipol airport, Amsterdam to be even better than Paris (This just an initial impression, may be not a correct one).

From past two days I am just strolling on the roads of Amsterdam and I am really impressed by the way this city is maintained. After having seen so many posh BMWs, Mercs and several 600+ CC bikes, what surprised me most is that I find so many people riding cycles here which is in sharp contrast with the mentality of Indians, who will definitely find it a shame if they happen to be rich. I think because of this only, the air pollution in Amsterdam is very less and life seems to be much more peaceful and relaxed.Last but not the least, I find so many Indians here supporting the saying that 'Indians will reach to the places where even train hasn't reached'.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Idle like a painted ship

Unbearable stillness in the ocean of time ,
Forcing me to create this useless rhyme,
While thinking of something elegant to write,
My brain squirms at my plight.

Sitting as idle as a painted ship,
I can't even even have a fresh water dip,
I want to ride high in the sky,
Till sun makes the whole ocean dry.

I know what i am writing is all waste,
But after all everyone has his own taste,
you better do your job right,
Then reading the crap i write.

- गजेंद्र "स्थिरप्रग्य" सिडाना

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Ek Din...........

दूर कहीँ उन-मने झरोखों से,
कहीँ थके अर्ध-सुप्त दराख्तो से,
टकराती चिल्काती उस अध्-जली धुप में ,
बैठा देख रह था उस सूनी पगडण्डी को,
जो बात झो रही थी किसी पथिक के आने को,
मानो गीली आंखो से तनहाई कि जलन बहुजन चाहती हो,
और पक्षियों के कलरव मैं अपने प्रियतम को पाना चाहती हो.

उसी दिन मैंने उस नीरस तीर को भी देखा था,
जो अपने प्रियतम को पाना चाहता था,
पर मानो नदिया कि पद्तादना से बबुस,
दूस्रेय तीर को बस्स निहारेय जा रह था,
और व्याकुल हो अह्स्रू नदिया मैं बहाए जा रह था,
संतोष बस्स इतना ही है उसको,
उसका प्रियतम भी कभी चुमेगा उसकी अश्रु कि बूंदों को.

उसी दिन मैंने हवा से कहते सुना था,
किसी बागन मैं एक गुलशन खिला था,
हवा से बातें करते करते उसने यह कहा है,
बहार के इस समां मैं वो कबसे भवरें कि राह देख रह है,
पर मस्त मलंग भावारे कि कौन खबर लाए,
और इस लाचार गुलशन के दिल को बहलाये.

मैं लाचार हैरान उनको देख रह हूँ
चाहता हूँ मदद करना पर खुद को भी बबुस पता हूँ,
और फिर उससी उदास पगडण्डी के बगल से बिना उससे चेदे
उस तीर के साथ साथ हवा से अपनी बबुसी जताता हुआ
तनहा घर लॉट जाता हूँ.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Kumara Parvata - A Memorable Trekking Experience












Last Wednesday, Zubin asked me if I am interested to go for hiking to Kumara Parvata (KP), a part of Western Ghats and I was told that this is the most difficult trek in Karnataka with a total to and fro distance of about 36 km. Despite of having no prior trekking experience, I agreed for the trip. Others in the team were Aveek, Arun, Ashok and Ajit (Four As!!!!). Amongst us, only Arun had prior trekking experience but he was also going to KP for the first time. So at the time of starting, we had no information about the trek details, other than the fact that it is known to be the most difficult trek in Karnataka. We found some blogs with details and though they provided us with some useful information, at the same time they also misled us. These blogs had compiled a list of items we should carry along with us but later we found that most of them were not needed at all on the trip and only added to our baggage. Based on these blogs, we decided which items we need to procure before embarking on the trip. Arun had booked the tents and travel tickets; Zubin and Aveek arranged for sleeping bags.

Finally, after two days of extensive preparation, on Friday (12th Jan) evening, we started for Kukke Subramanya (which is about 280 km from Bangalore), the place from where we had to start our trekking. The bus not being in a very good condition, gave us a very good warm up for the arduous journey we were to have later. We reached at Kukke Subramanya at 5:00 am and took 3 hrs of rest before starting our journey towards our first destination i.e. Narayan Bhatt’s house popularly known as Bhatta’s house. Here itself we had committed our first mistake. By the time we started, sun was already out in full, dissuading us not to make any attempt to reduce our distance from him and we like stubborn kids went ahead without paying any heeds to his threats. Initial part of the trek pass through thick wood cover and the slanting morning sunrays percolating through the trees was a superb feast for the eyes and the fresh air gave an extravagant treat to our CO2 rich and oxygen deficient brains. This forest cover lasts for around 4 km and we didn’t have any problems crossing that stretch but before reaching to Bhatta’s place, we needed to pass through grasslands. It was already 12:30 PM till we reached to Bhatta’s place. We had to take several breaks in between and had to consume lots of glucose and water to prevent dehydration. Just before bhatta’s place, you can find one tower standing and besides it you find a board saying “Please don’t tease wild animals” with a picture of tiger drawn on it and I am sure how happy every tired individual, who doesn’t even have a knife to cut grass, is going to feel after seeing this board. The time we reached at Bhatta’s place, it was already half past twelve and we were completely exhausted. We ordered for food and crashed wherever we could find the place. That place was crowded due to lot many people coming for the special pooja on Sakaranti, which was scheduled take place at KP on 14th January. After 45 mins we got food, which included boiled rice and radish sambhar and I can assure you that sambhar-rice never tasted that good to me throughout my life.

We started our journey at 2:00 PM and people told us that further journey is even more tiring as it is very steep and almost all of it is through grasslands. After taking adequate permissions etc through the forest department, we proceeded for what was to be the most difficult 6-8 kms of our life. The heat along with the exertion was killing us and we finished all the 12Lts of water, which we were carrying along with us before we reached the next source of water, which is about 3km from Bhatta’s place. Till this time, Aveek was dehydrated and was finding it very difficult to continue. We drank lot of water at that small source and washed our faces with cold water, which rejuvenated our spirits to conquer the peak. Our next destination was Mantop, a site where people Camp frequently if they find it difficult to reach the peak before the dusk. Till the time we reached Mantop, I also developed some sprain in my leg and was finding it very difficult to continue but lots of encouragement by other people kept me going. We decided that we will continue moving up till 5:30 and then will halt at a suitable place where we camp for the night. Till the time we found this suitable place, we had already traveled 2 kms from Mantop and were already at the peak of Shesha Parvata. The worst part about the whole trek is that it is very deceiving. All the time you will be moving up thinking that the highest peak you can see is your final destination, but it is never the case. All this time we were thinking that Shesha Parvata is our destination but when we reached there, we realized that KP is still 2km from this place. It was already evening six till we found a suitable place to halt. The place was very beautiful and we could see whole of Western Ghats from this place. We fixed our tents there and Ashok and Ajit went to collect woods. As the sun disappearing the temperature went down sharply (though not as cold as mentioned in the blogs I read). Initially we had to struggle a lot to lit the fire but finally using my Lohri experience I managed to lit the fire (surprisingly that day was Lohri and it became one of my most memorable Lohri I had so far, with bonfire at a height of 6000ft). Aveek and myself prepared, Maggie we were carrying with us and we really prepared some delicious half cooked Maggie. We sat for an hour around the bonfire, shared jokes and sang some songs and went on to sleep in the tents. Sleeping in the tents was a unique experience and when I got up it was the most pleasant morning one can expect, with fresh air filling our lungs with infinite energy and zeal. Throughout the night we never felt the need to use the blankets we were carrying and I was feeling very angry with the person who suggested this. Arun, Ashok and Ajit decided to go to peak early in the morning but we three decided to stay there on wait for them. We played cards (bluff) there with whole of Western Ghats witnessing our bluffing. When these people came back, we started back for the Kukke Subhramanya. The return journey was much peaceful though it put a lot of strain on our knees. We reached back at Kukke Subhramanya around 5:00 in the evening without much difficulty where special darshan were going on for Sakranti festival. We saw some wonderful Kathak performance by local troupe and then started back for Bangalore.

While crossing the forest on my return journey, Robert Frost’s following famous word kept echoing in my brain again and again:

Woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.





Following are the few tips about the trip:

Carry sufficient water
Keep the baggage weight to the minimum.
Don’t carry anything which is not required.

List of items one must carry:

Tents
Sleeping bags
Warm clothing (one jacket and thermal inner wear is enough, don’t carry blankets)
Normal clothing (One shorts, extra half sleeves t-shirt, extra shocks)
Camera (with extra batteries)
Ipods or music phones (music sounds fantastic in such beautiful locations)
Water (2lts per person)
Food items like Maggie, bread, jam etc.
One small cooking pan and spoon
Torch
Rope
Adhesive Tape
Needle and thread
100mL Petrol
Lighter and matchbox
One Knife
First aid (including antibiotics, anti-inflammatory, analgesic and band-aid etc)

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Defending the Despised

Person 1: Hey man, Congrats you got placed in a good company with an excellent package.

Person 2: Thanks buddy but I don't think I am all that happy with the job.

Person 1: Why? You have a very good package along with the profile you always dreamt of !!

Person 2: I know man but you know I have been placed in Chennai.

This is a common dialogue you can find across all the college campuses in the country. Whenever anybody gets placed in Chennai, invariably feelings are the same. Even I had the similar feeling, rather even stronger, as I had already spent four years in that place. I really despised Chennai and used to crib a lot about it. There was not a single day when I didn't abuse Chennai. Now I have left that place (prison) but there is a surprising change in attitude towards Chennai. If you think I miss Chennai now then I am really sorry but you are wrong. I don't miss Chennai, not at all, but I do have developed some sort of peculiar attachment with the city. I still abuse Chennai sometimes but can't tolerate someone else doing the same. Over the past few days, I have found myself defending the same city which I myself abuse. I don't like others criticizing the city even though they haven't ever lived in it, though I feel I have the every right to criticize it because that is my city, my own "Chennai". So next time please don't criticize Chennai in front of me.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Living a dead life

Sitting here by the lonely window,
I think of those hustling days,
And the beautiful colours of rainbow,
when happiness was scatter on all the ways.
The life which was happening and cheerful,
And the days when we made the sun glow,
We inspired the life to look meaningful,
And made the time pass just like rivers flow.

Now the reason has taken its toll,
The real me is dead long ago,
Every one have to find a suitable role,
But the only thing left is a dead shadow.
I am moving all along for no reason,
Traversing down the difficult lanes,
But why am I is an unanswered question,
And purposelessness of life still remains.

(my own creation)

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Insanity Unlimited

I have always marveled at the functioning of Indian system, I mean whenever I think that what could be the driving force, which is making it run from so many years, my brain goes wild. I always find everything going on in a very smooth equilibrium and you can find all the antagonistic things living side by side. You can find corruption and honesty living side by side, as if they were some lovers who were born to live like that. You can find both intelligence and stupidity intermingled so closely to each other that go to any work place, you can find the difference in black and white. You find people supporting and praising talented people at one time, at other time you will find people calling them as a symbol of elitist oppressors.

In India everybody is moving on without knowing why they are moving or where they are heading but all of them know one thing for sure "We have to keep moving". You read big stories covering the grand success through which Indian Economy is going on or great thing regarding equality and democracy that India is preaching at international stage but I am sure noone ever noticed what a mockery of these two words is being made in the country.

State is imposing a ruthless discrimination in the name of upliftment of downtrodden. Reservations are imposed without any data collection or proper reason being given. Supreme court is shouting at the top of its voice that "how can Govt. of India first play the game and them make the rules". Supreme court has time and again suggeted our HON. DEMOCRATICALLY elected govt. to remove creamy layer from the ambit of reservation but the penchant hypocracy prevailing in the democratic setup itself doesn't allow OUR govt to listen to the reasonable voice. As I already mentioned, in India people learn to live very easily with the vices and virtue without creating much fuss, they also accepted reservation as the their fate. Protests died down because protestors knew that nothing other than demographic count can put any reason into the head of Head of State in India.

I feel that Indian leaders has got a contagious disease to show that they are very considerate of poor without knowing actually how to do that. Few days back only I saw one advertisement in Hindu published in public interest by Govt. of India saying " I am prepared, I have my boat ready, and lots of stuff ready and a fisherman was shown there and at the bottom it was written I am empowered". Now the basic question, which came to my mind, was "can a fisherman read English"? I am sure not many of them will be able to read English, then what is the point of giving this ad. in Hindu.

The reason is clear, DEMOCRATICALLY elected Govt of India doesn't go by reasons. They are not concerned who is getting benefited from its policies; all they care is votes, so that they can come back. Using Hindu (most widely circulated paper) they want to give the impression to middle class that they care for the people and by giving reservations they make sure that they can appease about 50% of the population. Cheap tools like caste, religion, bottle of local wine and some cash can easily lure poor.

The stage is all set for the enactment of George Orwell's ANIMAL FARM...

oops!!! sorry stage was always set here in India, I guess George Orwell must have taken the inspiration from India :)

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Incredible India - The Good, Bad and Ugly

Once I saw the caption line used by the Tourism Department of India "Incredible India".I really could not understand the implication of those two words. I thought it to be a good caption line but what is so incredible about India. After all this also just another country spread across the globe, though unlike others, Indians were able to increase their count to one billion.After so much of the strain on my grey cells, I found that indeed India is incredible otherwise where you will find hundreds of religions, thousands of languages (including dialects) and millions of tourist places but if you thinks that is all about India then you are grossly mistaken. There is much more in India which makes it really incredible.

The country with millions of square feet of sprawling IT workspaces spread over its fast booming metros, living side by side with the biggest slums of the world.The country which claims to become the Guru of world in art, religion and literature is now fast headed to become the IT super power of the world. This is not the only good part that can be spoken about India, there is also a long success story related to revival of manufacturing sector and green revolution, which can be narrated infinite times. So i guess that give a very good picture of GOOD face of "Incredible India" but I think BAD face is more horrible with millions and millions dying of malnutrition, high corruption (70th place out of 162) and a fracture country divided along the lines of religion, region, language and caste.

But in this blog, my aim is not to focus on either the good or bad face of India. Here want to bring into attention the UGLY face of "Incredible India" The face which stinks beyond imagination like a gutter and make you ask one question again and again, what is so incredible about India?

In the fast commercializing world, when most of the people don't prefer to make literature as their living, the ones who have proved their mettle are struggling to earn their bread. Everybody raised hue and cry (in India also) when Mohd. Ali threw away his gold medal in the river against the racial discrimination but no body bothered when the person who was once part of Olympics hockey gold winning Indian squad and had to sell his gold medal to get the treatment for his wife and children. He died while selling ground nuts on foot paths. The goverment instead of doing anything to save the dying literature/art/sports in the country are busy trying to save their chair. The help is given to those who really don't need any.Yesterday I read one story in Hindu about a State Sahitya Academy award winner poet who is struggling hard to make is living. I am pasting it below and I am sure reader can't do anything to stop this story in hovering in his mind for a long time.

The poet as fishmonger (K.P.M. BASHEER) Source: The Hindu

IT was a monsoon night. The village was soaked in rain. The tiny thatched hut leaked. The kerosene lamp struggled to fight off the wet winds that tried to snuff out its pale light.

Hungry and lying in his grass mattress spread out on the floor, Pavithran listened to the night's wail. His mother rose, and came close. "Child, there's a treasure trove hidden in a bamboo grove a little distance away," she whispered in his ears. "I am going out to get it. Be a nice boy and go to sleep."

Vivid memory

Leaving him alone in the hut, she walked out into the rainy night.

The mother returned by midnight. She had no treasure trove with her; only a wet five-rupee note in her hand. Tears in her eyes, she dried it against the flickering lamp.

More than a quarter century later, Pavithran Theekkuni, the celebrated young Malayalam poet, still vividly remembers that tortured night. It had scorched the innocence of his boyhood.

His mother had gone treasure hunting again on many nights — for, she had to feed two young stomachs, Pavithran's and his sister's. She could never get him the promised treasure trove, but her nocturnal travels left a deep scar on Pavithran's mind. Years later, their burning memories echoed in his poetry. In the widely admired poem "Nidhi" (treasure trove), the poet scoops out the molten lava of that painful experience into his readers' hearts.

For a five-rupee note, Pavithran's father had once "sold" him when he was a little boy. The insane father has lived on the street, almost naked, for the past three decades. All his childhood, Pavithran suffered the ridicule, "madman's son".

Basis of his poetry

"My experiences formed my poetry," Pavithran tells his interviewer. "With my 32 years of life experiences, I can probably keep on writing poetry for the next 10 lifetimes."

Sitting on a rock near his home in Aayancherry, 60 km from Kozhikode, his shirt and hair and hands reek of fish. He is just back from the village market where he makes a living by selling fish. Eight books of poetry and several poetry awards (including a State Sahitya Akademi Award) later, selling fish is his only reliable source of income. Earlier, he used to carry the fish basket on his head and sell door-to-door; now, from a wooden board raised on the road's edge.

"I make upwards of Rs. 150 a day," Pavithran says. Mackerels, sardines and seer fish help feed three stomachs — his wife Shaantha's and two children's — who live with him in a rundown one-room thatched hut that has no electric light.

"There is no poetry on my mind while I sell fish; all I care about is to sell out my ware." That was why he asked the interviewer to wait until sundown.

Hawking fish has helped end his years of wandering across Kerala picking up odd jobs — as restaurant waiter, digger of phone-cable pits, newspaper vendor, coconut plucker, barber, chef, stone-cutter, headload worker and occasionally as beggar. And writing poetry in between. "It was poetry that kept me going during those days of pain and hardship."

Driven by extreme poverty and debt, Pavithran and his family had, at one time, attempted suicide. On the 1999 Onam night, the four-member family laid down across railway tracks near Thrissur awaiting a train to end their worries forever. But, a few minutes before the train arrived, Pavithran's three-year-old daughter got up and cried out for water. At this, the one-year-old son got up too, and both refused to lie down on the tracks again. Then, the family went back to life. That night, as rain poured, they slept in a shed.

While his wife and the son were in hospital, Pavithran, holding his daughter's hand, begged in the streets for days to keep the family alive. But even during those days, he used to scribble poems in his notebook. In one of those poems, Pavithran asks: "Is death harder than starvation?"

Emotional support

Pavithran married his wife Shaantha at the age of 20 while he was still in college. She was from a poor family and was practically illiterate and her father had died of mental illness. "I married for money," Pavithran admits. "I was keen on marrying off my sister in order to rescue her from my home." With the little money he got as his dowry, the sister was married off. But the marriage didn't last long.

"But for Shaantha, I would have ended my life long back," he says with gratitude. "She stood by me in all my travails." He sold off her only piece of gold jewellery to get his first book of poetry, Spring of Wounds, published in 1994, when he was just 20. (He got his second book published by raising Rs. 20 each from 500 people.) After marriage, he dropped out of college.

Pavithran had started writing poetry when he was in high school. "Poetry just came out of my hardships," he says. "It was my only weapon against life's assaults." He was not a great reader, and had skipped all the must-read classics of Malayalam poetry.

He was a bright student. Working on holidays, and even during intervals between classes, he supported himself. Poverty, the "insecurity of the home" and the bad reputation brought in by his parents had forced him to drop out of school and college many times.

His free verses use simple, short words which are deep and intense. Some read like Zen poems. Not for him the high-flung, flowery poetic language. The imagery comes from subaltern lives.

Most of his poems first appeared in magazines. "Those editors who once rejected me are now seeking out my poems; I send the same poems they had once rejected," Pavithran says with a chuckle.

Critics' responses

"Pavithran's poetic sensibilities come from his lived experiences," the late Dr. Ayyappa Panicker, the well-known poet, observed in a review of his poems. "His mind and poetry are full of fire — but they do not yell out, just smoulder."

So far eight volumes of his poetry have come out in print. But they offered not much of a financial relief. The latest, Thekkuni Kavithagal, was published by DC Books recently. Leading literary critics rank him high among the young poets. His poems are referred to as "poems born out of fire" and "poems smelling of scorched lives". Some critics have accused him of "having brought in the stench of fish to Malayalam poetry".

Pavithran says he has no intention to quit hawking fish in the near future.

Ref: http://www.hindu.com/mag/2006/11/12/stories/2006111200350700.htm

Thursday, November 09, 2006

A wake up call for Feminists

I have always wondered how people manage to find some trivial issues to raise and then fight for them. Take the case of north south divide, the whole issue rest on the difference in language. People are going mad about it, fighting with each other but in turn leaving out the core issues i.e. the widespread poverty which prevails everywhere in the country.Then can't help but to think about the fight going on for over a century between communists and capitalist. The whole issue being who should own the enterprise i.e. the top bureaucrats or some capitalists. In the end it has to be none other then the poor labor class people who will suffer in both the systems.I don't deny the fact that it is suppose to be this way only. In the food chain, somebody gotta to be on the top. Not every one can be at the same level.

When talking about struggles, how can anyone miss one of the greatest revolution to happen in our century. Yes, you guessed it correctly, I am speaking about FEMINISM. The movement claims to fight for the upliftment of fairer sex who has been oppressed from the times of Adam and Eve. Even I agree that these poor creatures bears so much throughout their lives but for no reason but this movement never meant to address the core issues ( just like any others movement).Rather this movement started to focus on issues like why can't women smoke, drink or go out naked etc just like man!! Now my question is do you really think that women's main suffering is that they are not allowed to smoke or drink or going out naked. So I thought (not actually but got the idea from the movie "Before Sunrise") that "feminism must have been a men's idea" and I think somewhere behind this movement are men only. Of late I don't see any funny issues from these feminists, so thought that I should suggest them a few and I do promise that as a mark of respect to their movement's grand history I won't suggest any issues which may remotely help the needy women. Here are the few issues which should be taken up in the near future:

1) Few days back I was passing by a construction site, there I saw one warning board "Men at Work, Please Go Slow". Now the question is why "Men at work" was written though there are so many women also working. Don't you think that this warning message is a conspiracy of men against women to devaluate their hardwork?

My suggestion is that government should pass a legislation enforcing all the contractors to put the board mentioning "Women and Men at work" (though there is a risk traffic jams after putting these boards :D ). Considering the gravity of crime, the contractor not abiding by this should be given life imprisonment.

2)I also see that in public transport busses, seats on left sides and the rear are reserved for women and the ones on the right and the front (just left to driver) are left unreserved. Again its clear that by reserving the back seats, men want to subjugate them they way they have been doing for generations.

My suggestion would be to reserve every alternate seat for women (not to mention starting from seat no. 1 :D).

I will try to come up with lot more issues to help (wo)men from time to time. :D

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Should I celebrate?

One more independence day is on its way to put some more burden on the government exchaquer and to make us feel better by emphasizing that at some moment, we were even worse then this. I think the whole purpose of this excercise is to convey one simple message "Dear countrymen, please don't worry if you find the situation in the country very bad because few decades back we were worse". The honourable PM will give a very long speech (written by some else, edited by another) while standing on Lal-Quila which will be more of a philosophical sermon on how citizens should behave (without bothering what politicians are doing). In this speech, he will tell what was the contribution of the great leaders, what great deeds they did without thinking it important to focus on his own contributions. I know few of the so called patriotic guys will call me passimist and rude, but I think it is the high time we should start worrying about present also. I think just remembering the past is of no use, if we can't make use of it to improve are present. Country is divided on the lines of religion, caste, language and what not. You think of a reason for conflict, you can find in India. People are dyng of hunger but government is busy reserving seats IITs and IIMs on the basis of caste for people of particular castes. Every now and then bomb blasts are happening, people are dying but government is busy giving high pitch statements. So called saviours of oppressed are busy fooling them over and over for all these decades. Parliament never works properly, with no business ever done on serious matters. The fastest bills to be passed are those in which there is a proposal to increase the emoluments of MP's or the bill's like reservation to which no party dares to oppose. Democracy has become a poor joke. I don't know why west wants democracy everywhere.People are stupid eough first to elect stupid people and then crib about them. If this is is what we call democracy, then please don't enforce democracy around the globe.

The one who knows everything......

one of my senior told this incedent, when his parents asked his 8 year old son a simple question and got an amazing answer. The question was simple, who is the one who knows everything (omniscient)? The old couple after realizing that kid was confused, gave him a hint. Hint was "first two letters in his name are G & O". The kid replied instantaneously, is it GOOGLE.

I don't know wether this incedent suggests us to feel happy about the intellectual development of today's kid or feel sad for them receding away cultural values shared by the mankind for so many years.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Traversing Down the Memory Lane

Today I have finished one month in job and training is finally over. So soon i will be working on a real project but when I look back, I don't think it was that horrible experience about which my seniors use to warn me but still can't be compared with the IIT life. I know there is no point in brooding over the past and as Agent Smith said "everything that has a beginning has an end". So its better that IIT life ended and ended smoothly but still when I sit here and look back I can still see the live images of my days in 4th wing Godavari Hostel, IIT Madras. The images in which we are sitting idle and chatting for hours about anything ranging from discussing insti girls to absurd philosophy of Nietzsche. Within one month, I think, I am out of that mode of life but still there are few people who still hover in my memory lanes. I thought of writing few lines about each of them and after so much of the wait here it goes:


Niloy: I am surprised that this person is alive after so much of tragedy in his life. The most important tragedy being born in Bong land (W. Bengal). So definitely its not his fault if he criticizes all the Bengalis collectively and even prefers to stay as bachelor throughout life in Chennai, rather then settling in Kolkata after marrying a hot Bong female.[:D] I think it was not only god who was against his happiness but to some extent his parents also. They killed all the joys of his life by sending him to a boys school and then again god did whatever he could to make sure that he even stays from the evil shadows of females [;)]. After passing out from boys school he got an admit into NIT Rourkela's metallurgy branch, the only branch where females are not allowed. Our man had read somewhere that man is creator of his own destiny. So he decided to work hard for a branch change and finally succeeded to get into electronics, which had 40% females, but he forgot that reality is a lot different then those motivational things written. Same year our man unwillingly cracked JEE and entered into Mech. Engineering, IIT Madras again a no-female zone. The strongest contender of greatest PJ god title, who may end up suggesting you robbing a bank with a chick, if you ever ask him how to cash with a chick.

He is not expected to cash in next several years.


Chintu: I am sure that this name gives an impression of a cute, small and simple boy but after seeing this guy you will realize how misguiding these impressions can be. This man is not small, not cute (only females find him cute) and by no means a simple guy. He is a man who can even teach Osama Bin Laden how to kill people without guns. This man can kill people with his non stop unjokes by first cracking a joke and laughing himself and as Gutkha says may be he closes his eyes while laughing and doesn't know if others are laughing too. The arbitest guy who ever wandered on this poor earth. A man, who can shout all of sudden while laughing and laugh while shouting. He pretends to be a country bugger but when it comes to talking to female he somehow gets refined all of a sudden and that's why he has a great female fan following but he is still struggling with is DAILY life.

He is cashing in Chennai but heading to Techspan, Bangalore.


Gutkha: I think to describe him one word is enough i.e. absurd. This man is a complete waste of his potential and has decided to gradually dissolve himself into smoke. He has already lost several inches on his waist. He has decided to defend the most unacceptable arguments like if rickshaw puller spents majority of his income on Booze he his right in doing so. Despite of all this he is really true to heart and speaks what he is thinking without any fabrication.

At present he is crashing in Room 222 without working.



Bhaiya: I think if there is someone whose parents have done somewhat comparable injustice then Niloy's parents then definitely it is Bhaiya. Bhaiya was instantly declared as the brother of all fraternity when he got a surname Bhaiya from his parents. This man was definitely the most sensible and practical person in our wing. This man pretends to be just like us but the inner news is that this man is cashing hazaar with chick especially whose names starts with 'S'. He is known to be cashing with at least 10 chicks though the typical ending of his love story is that girls call him with his surname: D

At present he is cashing in Bangalore while working in Modelytics.


To be continued

Monday, July 17, 2006

Jaago (Man) Mohan Pyaare

From the past few years I have been suffering from a mild insomnia and consequently I have developed a constant jealousy for those people who can sleep like a log. My first target of envy was definitely bihadi who can sleep even while standing in a crowded running MTC bus. I used to wonder how can one sleep like that or its just that he is somehow related to Kumbhkarna, the younger brother of Ravana. Whenever you wake him, he will say only one statement "arrey yaar thodi der aur sone de". This jealousy was not to last too long and it rather changed into a feeling of sympathy for bihadi when I saw our PM Manmohan Singh. I rather felt that may be Bihadi doesn't know that he is also suffering from insomnia and need some treatment. When I saw Manmohan Singh, i felt, yes here is the man who slept two years back and still sleeping.Normal people complain of missing the schools/offices by snoozing the alarm clocks in sleep but our PM cannot be woken by even RDX blasts, forget about snoozing.

Just like Bihadi, whenver anyone tries to wakes him up he also repeats the same statement which he has been using over and over again. His common statements include "This is a ghastly attack on humanity, they are trying to divide us but we Indians won't kneel in front of anybody. Pakistan should dismantle terrorist infrastructure from its soil". When it comes to do something against terrorists the main steps taken by Manmohan Singh government includes repealing POTA and letting them do whatever they want.

When we look into the performance of Manmohan Singh government i can remember only these achievements:

Dismissing 5 governers because of their political background and then appointing genuinely neutral governors in those states. These governors include politically neutral people like S. M. Krishna, Buta Singh and Smt. Pratibha Devi Patil etc.

Counting the Muslim population in Army (I doubt if there is any need for LeT to try and divide the country)

Providing the reservation to OBCs in Central Universities without even specifying properly the need to do so. ( I will say why LeT/Pak are wasting their time in trying to divide the country, we Indians are self reliant now and can do things ourselves).

Repealing the POTA and doing nothing after bomb blasts one happening on after the other as if India is celebrating a year long Diwali this time. No culprits were found be it Delhi blasts on Diwali, Varanasi blasts, Srinagar and recently Bombay blasts to name a few in the list.

Made severe blunder in the Kashmir related foreign policy by giving a proper third party status to Huriyat and accepting their claim that they represent Kashmiri people which was never the case till now.

Kept the economic policy to sabotage under the pressure of Left and all the talks of economic growth and disinvestment are lost somewhere.

I don't know where this country is heading under present UPA government. If the most educated PM in the history of country is unable to run this country properly I will lose faith over the effectiveness of education itself. I can think of only one song when I think of our PM "Jaago (Man) Mohan Pyaare" and I will buy an alarm clock if you don't have one otherwise I dont' know how many more people will die before you wake up.

Monday, May 15, 2006

My Favorite Poem

छिप-छिप अश्रु बहाने वालों, मोती व्यर्थ बहाने वालों
कुछ सपनों के मर जाने से, जीवन नहीं मरा करता है

सपना क्या है, नयन सेज पर
सोया हुआ आँख का पानी
और टूटना है उसका ज्यों
जागे कच्ची नींद जवानी
गीली उमर बनाने वालों, डूबे बिना नहाने वालों
कुछ पानी के बह जाने से, सावन नहीं मरा करता है

माला बिखर गयी तो क्या है
खुद ही हल हो गयी समस्या
आँसू गर नीलाम हुए तो
समझो पूरी हुई तपस्या
रूठे दिवस मनाने वालों, फटी कमीज़ सिलाने वालों
कुछ दीपों के बुझ जाने से, आँगन नहीं मरा करता है

खोता कुछ भी नहीं यहाँ पर
केवल जिल्द बदलती पोथी
जैसे रात उतार चाँदनी
पहने सुबह धूप की धोती
वस्त्र बदलकर आने वालों, चाल बदलकर जाने वालों
चँद खिलौनों के खोने से, बचपन नहीं मरा करता है

(गोपालदास 'नीरज')